Let’s Start at the Very Beginning

Maria says it well(For those of you who are The Sound of Music fans like myself).

Where else would we start than at the very beginning? I could say in Genesis God created the Heavens and the Earth(in a deep and powerful tone like Liam Neeson’s or Morgan Freeman), but I think most of us have heard that before.

Instead, I want to start right now. As you are, where you are, who you are now. No matter how you feel, what you have done, what you haven’t done, and why.

Let me just tell you, it’s okay to be confused, it’s okay to be uncertain. It’s simply okay to not be okay. “What?” You might ask. “But society tells me otherwise”… well, I’m here to say, ignore society in this case.

Part of searching is actually realizing that you are looking for something. That maybe you have lost something you had long ago, or maybe you have never even had it but feel like you should.

Something just feels off.

I remember, back in high school and even part of my awkward middle school years, feeling a little empty once in a while. Heck, I still feel like that and I’m 20, probably even more now than then.

For me, emptiness always looks different. Sometimes it looks like my body curled up in my bed, comfy clothes on, my blanket and my teddy bears surrounding me. (Yes, I still have teddy bears and I’m not ashamed.)

Other times, it’s my mind searching for answers that I can never give myself as a drive down the freeway. Causing my heart to attempt with great effort to comfort it, offering simplicity and love.

However, my mind usually wins. Sometimes it just looks like me walking through lif